第8章 你害過人嗎？

　　{"body":[{"id":"30915729503027200","sort":0,"type":1,"role":"29558404973512009","content":"路瑤通過在醫(yī)院工作的朋友，查到了北影入院那天的住院名單，其中確實(shí)有文學(xué)社社長(zhǎng)的名字。之前她就一直為自己害了北影而耿耿于懷，如今得知，自己不光害北影毀容，還害了自己當(dāng)年特別崇拜的文學(xué)社社長(zhǎng)！那個(gè)出類拔萃的、前途一片光明的帥氣少年，就為了救她，而永遠(yuǎn)離開了這個(gè)世界！"},{"id":"30915791780052992","sort":1024,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"你害過人嗎？"},{"id":"30915799581458432","sort":2048,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"有啊，誰沒犯過點(diǎn)錯(cuò)呢？"},{"id":"30915808423051264","sort":3072,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"你害過誰？有犯過特別大的過錯(cuò)嗎？"},{"id":"30915819445682176","sort":4096,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"當(dāng)然，我犯錯(cuò)的時(shí)候，害父母天天以淚洗臉，害關(guān)心我的人日日活在陰影之中?？墒?，所有的錯(cuò)都無法彌補(bǔ)，唯有日后謹(jǐn)言慎行，不再傷害他們。"},{"id":"30915830971629568","sort":5120,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"如果……被傷害的人，已經(jīng)不在了呢？"},{"id":"30915839561564160","sort":6144,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"那就珍惜眼前人，不再重蹈覆轍。生命那么長(zhǎng)，總會(huì)有人離開，又有人出現(xiàn)，能把握的只有現(xiàn)在，不能總活在過去，不是嗎？"},{"id":"30915853000114176","sort":7168,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"你說的對(duì)?？墒?，我總是會(huì)不由自主地想起過去的一些事情，無法釋懷。"},{"id":"30915861053177856","sort":8192,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"忘不了的事情憋在心里，就會(huì)發(fā)酵、變質(zhì)。不如向朋友傾訴一下，也許聽聽別人的見解，自己會(huì)感到豁然開朗。"},{"id":"30915871236947968","sort":9216,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"可是，有些事情，哪怕是面對(duì)最好的朋友，也說不出口。何況因?yàn)槲业倪^錯(cuò)，我連最好的朋友，也失去了。"},{"id":"30915878769917952","sort":10240,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"如果你不嫌棄的話，跟我說說可好？反正我跟你的朋友圈，沒有半毛錢關(guān)系。"},{"id":"30915885732462592","sort":11264,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"怎么會(huì)嫌棄？你也是我的好朋友??！雖然我不知道你的外貌怎么樣，但是在我心里，你是一個(gè)好人、一個(gè)善良的人，總是能在我心煩意亂的時(shí)候，讓我的心情好起來。"},{"id":"30915894590832640","sort":12288,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"既然你對(duì)我的評(píng)價(jià)這么高，那就賞我一個(gè)雅座，靜聽你的故事吧。"},{"id":"30915902929108992","sort":13312,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"我害死人了"},{"id":"30915911770701824","sort":14336,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"？"},{"id":"30915920108978176","sort":15360,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"在很多年前的一個(gè)平安夜，我一心要避開所有的人，除了我的文學(xué)社社長(zhǎng)，那個(gè)用熱情洋溢的詩文，把我迷惑得神魂顛倒的人。"},{"id":"30915926803087360","sort":16384,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"你喜歡他？"},{"id":"30915936466763776","sort":17408,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"十幾歲的女孩，哪里分得清愛情和友情？"},{"id":"30915943999733760","sort":18432,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"理解。繼續(xù)……"},{"id":"30915953109762048","sort":19456,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"當(dāng)時(shí)的我，很重視和他的第一次約會(huì)，然后，我拒絕了另一個(gè)男生的邀約。"},{"id":"30915964937699328","sort":20480,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"另一個(gè)男生，對(duì)你很重要嗎？"},{"id":"30915972705550336","sort":21504,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"是的，他是我生命中最重要的人，也是讓我悔恨終身的人。"},{"id":"30936899419631646","sort":22528,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"為什么要悔恨？"},{"id":"30937415873612783","sort":23552,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"那年的12月24日，他約我出去，要去做些什么我已經(jīng)記不清了，但是我清楚地記得，他在電話里對(duì)我說：“今晚攸關(guān)我的終生幸福，你一定要跟我一起，我才有足夠的勇氣去追求我的幸福！”"},{"id":"30937426076461254","sort":24576,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"他也許想要表白"},{"id":"30939040723238912","sort":25600,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"有那么明顯嗎？"},{"id":"30939040723238913","sort":26624,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"不然，你覺得他為什么要約你？"},{"id":"30937438426679473","sort":27648,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"不知道。但是那時(shí)的我卻對(duì)他說：“我把所有的勇氣都免費(fèi)送給你，孩子。姐姐生病了，臥床不起。你能讓姐姐平平安安地度過平安夜么？”"},{"id":"30937459384889053","sort":28672,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"你裝病？"},{"id":"30937473580561511","sort":29696,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"我不是存心想裝病戲弄他的，我實(shí)在是心虛得不敢對(duì)他說……那是我第一次，也是最后一次對(duì)他說謊。"},{"id":"30939040723238914","sort":30720,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"恐怕他……當(dāng)真了吧？"},{"id":"30937495327584987","sort":31744,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"也許吧。晚上出門的時(shí)候，我刻意沒帶手機(jī)，我怕會(huì)突然接到他的電話。"},{"id":"30939688709652480","sort":32768,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"你居然不帶手機(jī)？！"},{"id":"30939688709652481","sort":33792,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"呵呵，不作死就不會(huì)死！可惜作的是我，受苦的卻是別人！"},{"id":"30939688709652482","sort":34816,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"他一定很擔(dān)心你……"},{"id":"30937502056361900","sort":35840,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"我想也是。每次我生病的時(shí)候，他總是擔(dān)心我照顧不好自己，擔(dān)心我自己在家會(huì)不吃飯，擔(dān)心我吃的藥太多太苦而導(dǎo)致嘔吐……"},{"id":"30939688709652483","sort":36864,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"看來他很關(guān)心你"},{"id":"30939688709652484","sort":37888,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"他一直都很關(guān)心我，是我忽略了！"},{"id":"30939849502490624","sort":38912,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"只怪當(dāng)時(shí)太年輕！"},{"id":"30939849502490625","sort":39936,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"是我太無知"},{"id":"30939849502490626","sort":40960,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"別自責(zé)了。那一晚的約會(huì)是你期待已久的吧？一定很浪漫吧？"},{"id":"30937517074297912","sort":41984,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"說來也不怕你笑話！那是我第一次跟我崇拜的文學(xué)社社長(zhǎng)約會(huì)，然而，我竟然走神了！"},{"id":"30939849502490627","sort":43008,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"哦？"},{"id":"30939849502490628","sort":44032,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"還被社長(zhǎng)發(fā)現(xiàn)了！"},{"id":"30939849502490629","sort":45056,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"那豈不是很糗？"},{"id":"30937524071739828","sort":46080,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"是啊，很糗！我無論是掐自己的大腿，還是使勁擠出傻傻的微笑，都無法把自己的注意力拉回到我敬愛的文學(xué)社社長(zhǎng)身上。整場(chǎng)約會(huì)下來，我一直心神不寧，坐立難安！"},{"id":"30940421018353664","sort":47104,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"為什么會(huì)這樣？"},{"id":"30940421018353665","sort":48128,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"我也不知道。我一直以為自己很喜歡社長(zhǎng)，沒想到，卻把第一次和他的約會(huì)搞砸了，連個(gè)美好的回憶都沒有給到他。"},{"id":"30939974073319424","sort":49152,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"既然人在曹營(yíng)心在漢，那還不如早點(diǎn)回家！"},{"id":"30937527276475282","sort":50176,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"我也是這么想的。所以，原本我們計(jì)劃要玩通宵的，我卻提前向社長(zhǎng)辭別了。"},{"id":"30939974073319425","sort":51200,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"平安到家了嗎？"},{"id":"30939974593413121","sort":52224,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"我算是平安吧！但是我的家起火了，被燒得面目全非。被我拒絕赴約的那個(gè)男生，和與我約會(huì)的文學(xué)社社長(zhǎng)，自那晚之后，人生卻發(fā)生了翻天覆地的變化，而這些變化，都是毀滅性的變化，全都拜我所賜！"},{"id":"30939974073319426","sort":53248,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"天災(zāi)人禍，都難以預(yù)料！"},{"id":"30939974593413122","sort":54272,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"如果我沒有撒謊，如果我沒有答應(yīng)和社長(zhǎng)約會(huì)，那就不會(huì)發(fā)生這么嚴(yán)重的火災(zāi)，就不會(huì)有人因?yàn)橐任叶鴽_進(jìn)大火里！一切悲劇的源頭，都是因?yàn)槲遥?},{"id":"30939974073319427","sort":55296,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"別自責(zé)了，那只是一場(chǎng)意外，并不是誰的錯(cuò)！"},{"id":"30940421018353666","sort":56320,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"如果我早一些明確自己的心意，就不會(huì)造成那場(chǎng)意外！"},{"id":"30939974593413123","sort":57344,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"也就是說：你喜歡被你拒絕的那個(gè)男生咯？"},{"id":"30939974073319428","sort":58368,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"現(xiàn)在談喜歡，或者不喜歡，又有什么意義呢？當(dāng)年的那一段人生，已經(jīng)不能重寫！"},{"id":"30939974593413124","sort":59392,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"如果他還在的話，一定不希望看到你現(xiàn)在這么自責(zé)、消沉的樣子！"},{"id":"30940650782326784","sort":60416,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"如果他還在的話，一定比我還要消沉。十六歲就被大火燒傷毀容，那得承受多少的痛苦和壓力？"},{"id":"30940650782326785","sort":61440,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"人家愿意拿自己的生命，來守護(hù)你的生命，你更要好好珍惜。"},{"id":"30939974073319429","sort":62464,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"他，不止他，還有社長(zhǎng)，一定都恨死我了！"},{"id":"30939974593413125","sort":63488,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"不會(huì)的。一個(gè)愿意不顧自己的生命，而沖進(jìn)火里救你的人，又怎么會(huì)怪你呢？那是他心甘情愿的！"},{"id":"30939974073319430","sort":64512,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"這讓我更內(nèi)疚"},{"id":"30940720575545344","sort":65536,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"如果他沒死，你的內(nèi)疚感會(huì)不會(huì)少些？"},{"id":"30940720575545345","sort":66560,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"嗯，當(dāng)然。不過，還是覺得對(duì)不起他。我毀了他的一生，那是永遠(yuǎn)都無法彌補(bǔ)的。"},{"id":"30940893464756224","sort":67584,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"愛你的人，最大的希望就是你能夠獲得幸福。只要你過得好，就是對(duì)他最大的彌補(bǔ)。"},{"id":"30940893464756225","sort":68608,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"說得好像你很了解他一樣？"},{"id":"30940893464756226","sort":69632,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"因?yàn)槲乙灿邢矚g的人??！"},{"id":"30940893464756227","sort":70656,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"你也會(huì)為了她犧牲一切嗎？"},{"id":"30940893464756228","sort":71680,"type":1,"role":"30777642572353256","content":"當(dāng)然！是個(gè)男人，都會(huì)這么做的！"},{"id":"30940893464756229","sort":72704,"type":1,"role":"30753864809048337","content":"愛能讓人無畏，原來是真的??！可惜，我已經(jīng)失去了愛的能力。"}],"sentencecount":72}